Hello, I’m Me…?

Hello, to those who may be reading this on the other side.

You may know me... or not.

Either way, Hey! I’m Angeline, nice to meet ya!

 

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Oh, you want to know more about me?

Well, I’m me…?

I’m not sure what you want to know about me. I’m just your everyday 17-year-old senior student. I listen to music, I dance, and… Oh! If you want me to be less generic, I have economics as my favorite subject!

That should be enough for you to know what kind of person I am, right?

…No?

Well, I’m never the best at these kinds of introductions… Haha. So, apologies for the disappointing introduction.

Honestly, I’ve never been that type of person who enjoys socializing and I’m fine being in my own bubble, like a jellyfish! Swimming around, minding my own business, doing things that I love (such as making music, dancing and animating) and staying away from outside conflicts. What a nice life that must be!

But hey! Don’t get the wrong idea, I don’t mind some company and I’m used to socializing by now!

I know that may seem confusing, but it’s really not that hard to understand! I’m introverted, yes, but I’m a two-faced mask, you might not expect the other side of me that I’m able to do as an introverted person. For one, I enjoy speaking (which includes public speaking and debates) and have earned quite the award from it. I’m also the student council president and debate club co-president and co-founder at my school. Not only that, I also started to engage in MUN (Model United Nations) activities nationally and internationally. I guess that’s enough to break the stigma about introverts being bad at speaking or being in a leadership position (…well, not really, people just started to assume that I’m an extroverted person).

Phew, the things I do for my college CV and applications! Sooner or later, I would be the next white rabbit from Alice in Wonderland, being so busy and even having to rush my work. With all the things I have to juggle around, with school, extracurricular activities, exams…

But sometimes you gotta push yourselves, no matter how hard it may be. Like a salmon for instance, fighting through the strong river current to finally reach its destination, or in this case my goal. At least, that’s what I have been doing these past few years! It’s no biggie.

…Hm? I mean, yeah, it is overwhelming at times. But I can’t imagine doing something else other than all the things I’m doing now. I enjoy most of the things I’ve done and I do think I have brought a significant amount of impact by doing these kinds of activities, just like the impact a hammer brings as it breaks down the surface and creating a change, and I do wish to carry on with that ambitious ambition of mine of creating an impact not only to the people around me, but create an impact on the world itself.

There are many things that factor into the ambitious dream I have right now, but one word that can perfectly describe all the factors is anger.

I hate to have to witness the injustice around me, I hate being guilt-tripped for using my rights, I hate wasting my energy for someone just for it to go unappreciated and I hate those who dare create false accusations and rumors about me without having the courage to say all of it right to my face and conforming the truth. However, I’m no saint and I’m not any better than them. Just like how a gun can be used to protect or kill, I have done things that I’m not proud of but I am willing to evaluate and be the person who I can be proud of.

I don’t necessarily think that anger is a bad thing. While it has been the cause of many destructions, as one of my mentors said, “Anger leads to action”. Meaning that our anger can lead to a movement which would lead to a positive change, and the simplest way to do so is just to speak out! Just like how a bonfire, once one is ignited it is hot and dangerous which can be used to bring warmth and create something sweet (a positive impact), like s’mores, for instance!

I was never the megaphone a few years prior to today. The thought of speaking out had always intimidated me. The fear of being judged, made fun of and even discriminated against for speaking out, prevented me from doing so back then. It was only because of my outspoken close friend and my water-like personality where I am easily influenced (of course only to things that I see as positive) and would change shape depending on the “container” I’m in, that I was able to be more comfortable with advocating and speaking out.

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Ah! Well, it looks like I’m more than able to give you quite the description of myself more than I think I’m able to. Well, it’s a pleasure to meet you, my friend.

Thank you for listening… or perhaps reading through my rambling, about myself. Hey, if you’re into debates, speeches or MUN, hit me up! Maybe we can practice and improve together. However, just a heads up, I am (overly) passionate in this sort of field, like a hawk having full focus on the things it wants to achieve, so be prepared for more of my rambling about these sorts of things.

I’ll see you again very soon, my friend!

 

Keywords:

1.  Jellyfish – Represent minding one’s own business and staying in their comfort zone

2.  Two-faced mask – Represents breaking the stigma/stereotype of introverted people

3.  White rabbit – Represents being busy with juggling responsibilities

4.  Salmon – Represent pushing oneself to reach their goal

5.  Hammer – Represent creating an impact

6.  Gun – Represent that one has done both right and wrong (things one isn’t proud of)

7.  Bonfire – Represent one’s anger have been used to create change

8.  Megaphone – Represent speaking out, expressing one’s opinion, criticizing and advocating for a cause

9.  Water (-like personality) – Represent being easily influence

10.   Hawk – Represents the passion that one’s possessed